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Friday, February 28, 2014
Yet another (!) procedure related to Lynch Syndrome
Today was scary, emotional, draining, another reminder, and just one day that I am glad is over.Yes I know other people are going through just as trying times, 2 of my dear FB friends lost their Moms this week, my cousin lost her Mom weeks ago, my childhood friend is fighting cancer, my radio colleague died, my other radio colleague lost the love of her life. Their day was probably just as emotional, maybe they have more days like my solotoday...yet I just had my limit today. 2010 my crazy year, uterine cancer AND colon cancer. Colon Cancer sending me into chemo. Having 5 medical procedures in 6 months, traumatized. Is it called post traumatic syndrome, or who the hell knows what it is..but I know today I cried a few times. Out of fear and out of frustration. Cried after the nurse couldn't get a vein and when she did, it was messed up...cried when the anesthesiologist introduced himself andthen he saw the IV wrong, removed it and found another one. Thank God successful. Maybe it was after I started reciting the "Our Father" prayer...lol, then there I was with my eyes darting around the room looking at all the machines and gadgets and scary things. There were so many of them!!...and then i thought "this is all because of my Lynch Syndrome"...this all because I had colon cancer. I am here because the last polyp found was a flat one on the intestinal wall, not a good place they say. so this is a safety procedure with all it's risks...and I am going through all this. It took all day, on a rainy Friday when most were working and doing other things.I fasted for 2 days starving and then drinking that nasty liquid, vomiting horribly, and fighting back tears then, thinking, Screw this stupid procedure, I should cancel, but I had to push through, and I did and Thank God it is over. I think it all went well, I will wait for the final results...I am so exhausted. so of course i am looking forward to resting on this rainy Saturday, and anxious to get on the mic and voice my spots....one thing I know for certain, that always makes me feel better!!!
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I had no idea you were still battling and battling so strongly. I'm honored to see this, Trish, and honored to be your FB friend, at least. It is not easy when these procedures have to be done and then we realize that we're the one they're being done on and things do go wrong, even with the simplest of procedures. Of course, after awhile, after having so many easy, simple procedures be replaced with the more involved, the things that normally go wrong do go wrong, too, and they are not as easy and simple. Going it alone is how it has to be for the most part and 'going it alone' does not always happen without a momentary meltdown or, as I call it, 'the pause that refreshes.'
ReplyDeleteAll I could think of while reading what you were going through was, "gosh, I wasn't doing anything too important. I could have been there making funny faces, passing kleenex from her to me and back again. I could have hunted down the nurse who left you with the messed up lead...I could have hurt her privately and been back in time to welcome Mr. Anesthesiologist...I could have brought nurse back for Trish to hurt before Mr. Anesthesiologist arrived.' Of course, none of that helps because I wasn't there, I was here, 500 miles from the scene of all of this, but if I coulda, I woulda - you gotta know that, Trish.
Next procedure, please let me know. I may find a way to be there for you anyway. In the meantime, keep fighting the good fight. I'll go look for that nurse any time you give me the sign. Until then, love you lots - whole bunches. --Rhonda
Oh Trish, I am so sorry you are going through all this! Not fair for this to happen to such a wonderful lady! Damn cancer! But you are a strong and amazing person and I know you will conquer this! Be strong and God bless...<3
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