Losing 3 longtime girlfriends in 25 days, really?

In the past 25 days I have lost 3 buddies who all were in important chapters in my life. Unexpected deaths that affected all decade of my life.These women were in my career, they were in my twenties, they were in my time of being a Mom.I stumble as I write because each one have touched hundreds of people, not just Me. November 11th I was scrolling Facebook only to see a post from Ann's sister. "Unexpectedly we lost Ann" I took a double take on the post.What!? Ann and I just messaged each other about music in the Santa Cruz area, Cold Blood was returning. Ann was my buddy when I first moved to Santa Cruz as a 20 year old too young to be married working at Pac Bell. I loved that hippie girl Ann who sat next to me as we answered our Directory Assistance calls laughing at the insane questions coming our way. She had the sweetest sounding voice. I loved it. She teased the hell out of Me when she saw me planning a dinner meal of hot dogs and beans. "You don't eat Hot Dogs and Beans do you?!!"It was my new road to tofu and a non meat diet.I moved on from that job, went to college, dabbled in radio, left the area and found Ann again on Facebook.Years later met up in Santa Cruz and had a rockin' night enjoying live music laughing about those crazy Pac Bell days. Ann's passing was totally unexpected.I am so grateful to have been her buddy,she was one of a kind. Now for JoAnn. My young marriage painfully ended in Santa Cruz,and I was about to embark on a single life I never had. JoAnn was 5 years younger than Me. Full of life and dreams. We would have her pretend Flight Attendent passenger instructions after way too many cocktails always laughing hysterically while we cheered her on. JoAnn married and left the area, had a son and was diagnosed with cervical cancer, and fought it hard. It changed her life. Her marriage ended, she moved to Texas, and began her career as a Flight Attendent at age 40. She resurfaced when I was diagnosed with my uterine and colon cancer in 2010,giving me tips on how to keep a positive attitude. It was a great reconenction,she was so much wiser and enlightened. Her son grown up now married, had a baby, and JoAnn now diagnosed with her 2nd cancer,Breast cancer, had something to live for. A grandchild, and soon two.She endured all the horrible side effects and yet pushed through.Two months back in September her healthy took a nose dive. Fluid in her lungs, unable to breathe, the cancer was back.I was heartbroken for her,I wanted to selfishly have her for years longer.It didn't end that way. I saw the post on Facebook,as she wasn't returning my calls or texts. It just wasn't like her. November 24th JoAnn took her last breath at the age of 61.I am stunned and broken. Finally,Sweet Renee. Renee was my bud when I became a Mom. It was a late decision for me to become a mom,as my radio career was sailing along. Renee was younger and her son was in classrooms with our son Adam. We went on field trips, attended school chapel, met for coffee, school plays, Christmas exchanges, and took long exercise walks. Renee saw her children graduate from college, her son marry and worked dilgently to become healthy. A few years back she was diagnosed with Crohns Disease. Hooking her up with my sister in law who also battles the disease, they leaned on each other and exchanged tips on living with the disease.Renee spent her last days with her family.friends and her faith. She gained a daughter in law and shared an afternoon with them, wrapping up the evening viewing the neighborhood Christmas lights. Renee passed in her sleep that night December 6th. Too young. Unexpectedly. Her children, and hundreds of friends are devastated, she would have been 55 December 30th.We are now preparing for her services on that day. I am trying to wrap my head around all of this. Various decades in my life these women shared laughs, tears, hopes, dreams, and their time with Me. 3 longtime friends gone in just 25 days. I am grateful I was lucky enough to have them as friends in life,but I hurt for all of these beautiful women have left behind. Sadly the reality has set in. I miss you Ann, I miss you JoAnn, I miss you Renee.