The Never Ending Struggle With The Belief In Myself

So in the past 7 days, I sent out half dozen auditions from my Agent and didn't get a bite. Today I stroll through the TV room and hear an ad I auditioned for a month back completed for the hospital in our Metro area. I come back to my files and find the audition. I was off. I then rummage through my scripts and find the direction given...I gave them what they asked for: the usual: approachable, warm, sense of authority...blah, blah,blah, blah. I can picture it now, the young Creative Team throwing out every adjective they can think of to have their own ego input.. The booked talent did something different. She stood out, she booked it. I analyze the script again...I try to come up with a simple mantra that I can continually use before opening the mic and voicing the script. This is where the struggle starts brewing in my mind. What the "F" am I doing wrong? Then I go to Youtube and stumble upon some guy telling his audience who has a home set up, how for $5 they can get voice over work. WTF?I can't wrap my head around people doing this. Actors spend years training, it's how they get to Hollywood. I don't know how someone can think they can cut a corner. Maybe I am a sore loser. Maybe the little voices in my head are ruining it for Me. I'd like to think I am honed at my craft. I'd like to believe that I am better than someone who was told they have a nice voice so therefore they can set up a system and then record for $5 increments! I am baffled by it all. Something has to give here. I do voice for small companies, and I am forever grateful to them. I wonder whether they realize how much training I've had and how long I've been at this craft. They have got themselves a damn good deal. So I pull up an ad I did and think to myself that is f-ing National quality work. Somebody on one of these Creative Teams made up of young gradsone day will recognize I'm their voice, and if they feel the need to give direction I can take it and deliver it with no problem, because......I am a trained voice actor. So I search for that ad and post it here so that I can melt in it and give myself kudos that I need so that I won't falter with those crazy little voices inside my head. Tomorrow is another day and I wait patiently for more scripts so that I can knock the ball out of the park and land that damn National.