Hosting Saturday night Radio and evaluating my sound

I knew when I stumbled upon that damn college radio station at UC Santa Cruz I was hooked. What started as a 1 day a week incredibly fun hobby turned to a fulltime Radio career and a second career in Voice Over acting. I was bit by the bug of radio. Lead astray by the magic of music, seduced by Radio's charm.Here I am 3 1/2 decades later thirsting for it all again. I do have it, only very differently now. I built my own studio to record my voice overs, leaving corporate radio a few years back and now host a Saturday night Rock and Blues show on KZAP - Sacramento. I don't choose the KZAP music like I did in my UC Santa Cruz days or like in my early Radio years when we used index cards color coded, for each song and we the jock were able to choose the song, date the time, and file it in the back of the box.KZAP chooses the music for me, but I like it, and that is a radio hosts dream come true. I am here to feel the music with you. I don't talk politics, not allot of mention of family life, but I do share the feeling that was felt when the particular song ruled our life along time ago. This gig, I record from home, and load my breaks onto a computer server and listen to the show on a Saturday night like everybody else listening. Yet it still brings me the magic it did when I first started on the airwaves. When I hear my raps I evaluate them...Did I connect with you? Do you feel like I am your friend? Did your emotion change when you heard the song, in the same way it did for me? There's no politics in this gig. The Program Director actually offered the job to me as I called him looking for ad agencies for my voice over career! He knew my passion. He appreciated my experience. he knew I loved the radio.Life is so different now. I am older, I've worked every radio format there is, and every day part they offer, I have fought 3 cancers, raised a wonderful child, experienced a painful young divorce, and now experience a handful 2nd husband, lol, moved many times, traveled many places, been misunderstood by many and many I don't understand, but to have my passion still in my grip is one of the most fulfilling things I can be doing. Saturday nights are good just the way they are....listening to my show on KZAP Radio. I am deeply blessed through it all and to this day I can recite my mantra that I learned through cancer: I might be down, but I won't give up. Thank you God for my life today.