Yet another (!) procedure related to Lynch Syndrome

Today was scary, emotional, draining, another reminder, and just one day that I am glad is over.Yes I know other people are going through just as trying times, 2 of my dear FB friends lost their Moms this week, my cousin lost her Mom weeks ago, my childhood friend is fighting cancer, my radio colleague died, my other radio colleague lost the love of her life. Their day was probably just as emotional, maybe they have more days like my solotoday...yet I just had my limit today. 2010 my crazy year, uterine cancer AND colon cancer. Colon Cancer sending me into chemo. Having 5 medical procedures in 6 months, traumatized. Is it called post traumatic syndrome, or who the hell knows what it is..but I know today I cried a few times. Out of fear and out of frustration. Cried after the nurse couldn't get a vein and when she did, it was messed up...cried when the anesthesiologist introduced himself andthen he saw the IV wrong, removed it and found another one. Thank God successful. Maybe it was after I started reciting the "Our Father" prayer...lol, then there I was with my eyes darting around the room looking at all the machines and gadgets and scary things. There were so many of them!!...and then i thought "this is all because of my Lynch Syndrome"...this all because I had colon cancer. I am here because the last polyp found was a flat one on the intestinal wall, not a good place they say. so this is a safety procedure with all it's risks...and I am going through all this. It took all day, on a rainy Friday when most were working and doing other things.I fasted for 2 days starving and then drinking that nasty liquid, vomiting horribly, and fighting back tears then, thinking, Screw this stupid procedure, I should cancel, but I had to push through, and I did and Thank God it is over. I think it all went well, I will wait for the final results...I am so exhausted. so of course i am looking forward to resting on this rainy Saturday, and anxious to get on the mic and voice my spots....one thing I know for certain, that always makes me feel better!!!