The 2019 Reflection on life and Voice Overs

I can't put my finger on it, but for many years I have not been all whipped up about New Years Eve and the year ahead. There is an underlying restless discontentment. I watch all the optimistic posts on Social Media and think "why can't I recite that mantra". The annual New Years Day ritual of journeying through my 2019 calendar and transferring all the dates and memories: "the 1 year ago, the 2 years ago to remember events" starts my mind thinking it IS all about gratitude. It is the only way to rise above the doubts and these restless feelings. So I journey through my calendar and I find many things to fill my heart with joy. Taking on Yoga classes Visits from dear friends and radio friends and showing them my ocean and mountain community Getting through Jeff's lung surgery and all the stress that surfaced Getting through another annual colonoscopy and cancer free First time state's visits: cattle farms, San Juan Bautista, Amador County, Glen Ellen Seeing the music I love: Boz, ColdBlood, Willie K, The Rhythm Vandals, Micheal Gaither, The Unauthorized Rolling Stones Attending a childhood friends son's wedding Attending Arlen's Memorial service Comforting those that endure the heartbreaking anniversary dates of their loved one's passing Hosting my sister in law from Georgia to treat her to her trip of a lifetime Making improvements on my Capitola condo Meeting brand new friends in my new mountain area Spending Christmas with our son and his girlfriends family and Voicing, still. No big bookings but being on the microphone to fill my heart's desire. My voice over career is a crapshoot, my life is a crapshoot. So after all the notations are made I realize life is what I make it. There's nothing more to it than that. Thank you God for my life today.